You have no shame

Je n'ai parlé que du passé (car nous ne sommes plus). Les feuilles de frênes qui nous ont conduites à l'honnêteté nous ont aussi poussées à commettre des dommages irréversibles, les dommages collatéraux. Ceux-là même qu'on regrette au centuple. J'ai besoin d'une liberté que tu ne m'autorisera jamais. Alors j'ai besoin que tu m'oublie.

Forget about the sun. He forgot about you..

you see something in me that i'm not capable to feel

J'aime les fraises et la guitare un peu, mais ça fait mal aux doigts. Donc modérément.

self accomplishment

I used to enjoy drawing. I was pretty good at it, i went through it for years, people were starting to recognize a gift. Even my mum, the harder judge you've ever seen. But i gave up. Just like that. Just like you stop wearing a pair of jeans because it's too tight. Then i found myself a new hobby. Horses. I've be found of them since primary school, and it never stopped. When i finally got the allowance to ride, this has been the most rich and hard experience, demanding a lot of work. On myself. But it came a time, the pressure was too high for no pleasure. Work was falling apart, whereas it had been the only thing that could cheer me up. A week was incomplete without horses! I just let it go, saying "i'll go back to it in 2 months! ok, let's say 6." Now it's been more than one year and nothing changed. The thrill is still there. But the practice, the performance thing is behind me. In the mean time, i used to love music. I made my own lyrics, my own melody and i wanted so bad to play guitar. But it never came and i stopped fighting for it. I gave up. Once again. That's what i always do, no matter how bad i love something. I never go too far in something, otherwise it get's boring and you're loosing yourself. That's an excuse. And i know it. Sinking into something makes changes on you. It requires lots of focus. Cold mind. Enormous self-investment. By doing this, you're letting go freedom. And you're escaping commitment.

TO TEAR

Once you got me on my nerves, it's hard to cool me down.

J'ai failli appuyer sur la détente et dans mon hésitation tu a saisi ton poignard. Il m'a fallu une dose pour effacer la blessure, cette dose qui m'enfonce physiquement.